A Fond Farewell

Well its been years thousands of entries and lots of spelling and grammatical errors, but I think I'm going to stop writing this blog now. You all silently have been great. I appreciated the exercise everyday to churn out stuff, but quality has fallen and I think doing a weekly blog is probably more for me, easier to produce quality (or what I claim to be quality).

I encourage you to read my other blog naturally

http://exterminatorsassistant.blogspot.com/

I update weekly and I like to think its got my signature style with the fun the three of you have appreciated over the years. Much love, thanks for the ride. And enjoy your lives!

Time To Step Into More Dumb

"That sounds like robbery."

"You are thinking of it too much in a criminal sense, we're just asking them to give us money in exchange for them not being hurt, more protection."

"Protection from us."

"Well yes protection from us."

"No." Nidget was attempting to help me find new work by telling me we should rob people. I was beginning to suspect literally everyone associated with Trezlan was a bad person. We were in a dive bar in a bad part of town (I swear every town I roll up in now has all bad parts, it seems since the war the only thing that really spread was inequality). Because whatever Trezlan did I didn't trust and so hiding out seemed like a good idea.  The only other patron at the bar was an old man who looked passed out or dead. I didn't even see the bartender which was fine their drinks sucked.

"I think that old guy is dead."

"Nidget no don't you little monkey leave that poor man alone." He didn't listen he was immediately rifling through the man's pockets because he's an asshole without boundries.

"I think this guy is some kind of treasure hunter."

"No Nidget no." And I kept saying no all the way to the transport and on our way to location of a supposed treasure. It didn't do anything to say, but at least I said no, it makes me feel better personally.

Lessons Unlearned

"So Trezlan was screwing with us?"

"Yeah apparently it was something he did in his past and felt it was a learning experience for me."

"Sounds like a shitty learning experience."

"Right?" I of course was worried being back in my time I'd be arrested again, but apparently Trezlan had done something for me in that no one seemed to even notice. Not even facial scanners picked up that I was a wanted criminal. Nidget and I were just really wandering around now, just a couple people looking lost out of time and mind. At least I wasn't wearing my prison outfit, that was a plus even if I looked like some weird history buff.

"Well at least we are back in the real world right?"

"Sure, unless Trezlan is screwing with us again."

"I liked it better when he wasn't a god, then his powers of screwery were only related to small petty things like putting one rock in my shoe for years."

"Are you joking with me on that?"

"No, well at least I don't think so, it certainly felt like he did it just to me." We just walked in silence for a bit. Just getting used to pavement and city lights after the desert and swamp we experienced.

"So what do you think we'll do now?"

"Probably get into trouble, its that Andre and I used to do, and at least you aren't religious like he was, that followers of fire shit got really tiresome." And Nidget was correct, we totally did get into shit not too long after!

You Can Never Let Go

"He was but a young child, far too foolish, far too clumsy, he fell." The old man was crying, the story too painful, too real. "He fell and wouldn't wake up, he just wouldn't wake up, so I did what any parent would do I made a deal with someone who I should not have and this, this is what happened." I still wasn't exactly sure how someone could take a comatose child and make it into the monster we saw, but magic is weird and those who make deals even weirder.

"So you want us to not kill him?"

"No I can't do it, I tried, I know he's a monster, he's ruined these lands and he'll do worse, I just," He wept again, "I just can't, he's my son." I understood though I had no children of my own I'd seen the way my father had always had to make hard choices when it came to sending me to do anything. It was in his eyes, the eyes of "anyone but you." Just seeing the poor man crying killed me, I wanted to slay a big creature, but the real monster was in front of me, grief in all its forms was the real killer.

"Nidget remove him please." Nidget understood, he lead the old man out. I approached the heart and I could see the small boy in there. He looked like he was dreaming among the roots and branches coming off him. I didn't want to kill him, I didn't want to destroy this monster because it felt monstrous even though I knew it was right for the world. I felt myself unable to do it.

"Harder than it looks isn't it." Of course Trezlan showed up, I'm sure he has no issue killing children and anything else.

"He's a little boy."

"Thankfully not real." He snapped his fingers and we were in darkness. Just a black nothing.

"This was a test."

"Everything is a test, some things more than others, this is a real thing I did once, I can't remember why or how, but I ran across that old man and his son, at first I thought I could just do it, I mean I'd killed hundreds of things over the years, but a small boy who's only issue was being clumsy? Seemed cruel even if he was now a monster. So I used magic, a lot of it, lots of it was bad, awful things, but I saved the child's life and ended the monstrous creature."

"So you ultimately did good."

"No, no I did not, the boy grew up, became a man, and did terrible terrible things, nothing that I knew would happen mind you, nor would his father. But all the same, by interfering in how things should go I got more people killed than I thought was possible."

"Says the person who said you sent us to the past and things would just work out."

"They did for the most part." He winked at me and then I was back in my timeline, Nidget was still there looking just as confused.

"What happened?"

"Trezlan was an asshole as usual."

"Oh so its a day that ends in Y."

The Heart of the Issue

We were in some kind of cave. We had been pulled under the earth by the monster and we could see bones of previous creatures. They lined the walls roots shooting through them. I assumed the creature just ate things, but apparently it drained them of their life slowly which was a benefit to Nidget and myself. Nidget for the most part had already escaped his roots, probably because he was short and not technically alive so the creature failed to account for him.

"So are we like in its stomach?"

"I'm not a biologist Nidget."

"Well yeah but you know things right?"

"Nope, get me out of here!"

"Won't that alert the monster?"

"NIDGET! GET ME OUT OF HERE!" I could have used my coldfire, but I was keeping my reserves of that just in case it came down to slugging it out with the monster. The little jerk finally freed me and we moved on from the "stomach" to further in, which definitely felt like we were inside the creature, despite being underground. I figured if we kept going enough we'd find its heart and be able to kill it underground (good of a theory as any other!) So we walked under the earth for a bit until we came to a central chamber and found its heart and an old tired man.

"I knew someone would come eventually to kill my boy." He leveled a pistol at us, I didn't even know they had guns this early, his hand was weak though and he couldn't even keep the pistol up before he dropped it and started crying. And things only got more awkward from there.

Not a Swamp Monster, A Swamp Giant

"That is a one big freaking monster." It was the size of a small building. I want to think Dave should have oversold the creature in its size, but I don't think that was possible. It was very much a creature, all made of earth and seemingly partially fused with the ground. Very much alive, a wandering animal got snatched up and eaten while we watched.

"Well everything is big to me, this one bigger than most." Nidget had that perspective, though I think he was underselling the size difference.

"So what do you think we do to kill it?"

"If Trezlan were here he'd say burn it down, so uhh you go set it on fire and we solve this little issue." I was hesitant to believe either a Trezlan plan or the cold fire would work on such a creature.

"So what's the other plan that won't get us killed?" Before Nidget could answer roots reached up from the ground and had snatched us. I should have known the creature would have noticed us, but you know when you are in an argument with a little person you make mistakes. Mistake like standing there like an idiot while it grabs you and slowly lumbers over to eat you. Mistakes like that.

Dave of the Lost Daves

"So really my family used to farm this land prior to it going all swampy of misery." The cloaked man was named Dave, the least threatening name ever. I mean tommy the evil person is just funny, but Dave was nice, he took us in and fed us and didn't try and kill us, so you know modest hopes from another human.

"Why don't you leave?"

"Felt like giving up really."

"So instead you stand around scaring people about the swamp of misery?"

"Well its more of a warning."

"About what?"

"Oh the giant land killing monster that lives further in." It felt like Dave should have lead with that. Like instead of all the hi's I'm Dave, maybe say "Hey can you help me kill this huge monster that killed my familial land?" But that's not Dave, Dave's nice.

"Giant swamp monster?" Nidget already started to sound kind of apprehensive.

"Not really a swamp monster, just a giant land killing creature, I dunno its like part of the earth or something? It really just turned this more liveable land into the horrid swamp you see right now."

"You want to kill the monster don't you." Nidget knew, he just knew.

"Yes yes I do." And so we set out on an actual good thing and not whatever Trezlan wanted us to do, because he's a dick and we do what we want!

I'm Shocked By This

"So I have no idea where we are going." I felt like killing Nidget wouldn't get me anything, but the satisfaction of the action would at least be worth it when my final moments came. We had at least gotten beyond the desert and into a swamp like region which didn't seem like one should be next to the other, but I'm not some kind of environmental person I have no idea.

"I couldn't tell Nidget, what with your charging ahead 'I know where I'm going' the whole time."

"Well that was to give you a feeling of confidence, I'm completely lost, I don't even know what continent we are on."

"I hate you so much right now Nidget."

"There it is, now this a proper adventure with a Lorentino." I was about to tell him where he can shove his adventure when we were stopped by another hooded cloaked fellow.

"WELCOME TO THE SWAMP OF MISERY."

"Let me guess your name is Ralph." I figured we'd get this started right.

"Oh god you guys ran into Tommy didn't you?"

"Yeah a couple weeks back."

"How did you wind up here, like if you were going for civilization you are way off." I scowled at Nidget, but at least the keeper of the swamp of Misery was nicer than I expected.

"Nidget's an idiot."

"Say no more, come come along lets get you something to eat."

"I thought you said this is the swamp of Misery?"

"Well I get pretty lonely and only half mad people dying of thirst normally swing by, so I put on some theater for them sue me." I wasn't going to find fault in someone being nice to us in this weird place, but I have to say the Swamp of Misery was pretty nice eventually. Maybe it just needs better marketing.

So Stuck? Horilarious

We didn't end up killing Carver either. Ultimately she was just as pathetic as Tommy, she vowed to reform herself, but we didn't really care either way. We did manage to take some money from her (we're not good people) and I got some new clothes that fit in more with the time period. Of course I was hoping Trezlan would come get us, but alas he was busy doing Trezlan things, so we were lost in the middle of gods knows where, during who knows when? Like this was a really bad situation for reality in my opinion. But I didn't know anything really! I didn't even know if where we were was real, and not just Trezlan screwing with us.

So outside of the cave of not horrors the rest of the area we were in was fairly desert. Nidget said it felt like his home which was also a desert, and that didn't make me feel better. I also didn't feel super smart we didn't think to bring water when we left stupidly. I suggested we go back and rob Dr. Carver of her water, but Nidget vetoed that as he said it would make us look like idiots. So dying of thirst was the preferable method!

At least Nidget seemingly knew what he was doing. I had never been this alone in a survival situation ever. In the war we were hunted but it was mostly in the ruins of things, there was stuff to scavenge. This was the wilderness, an empty waste! Completely different for me in so many ways! I figured Nidget would at least know where he was going. After two weeks almost dying... HE HAD NO FREAKING IDEA EITHER! YES IT TOOK ME TWO WEEKS TO FIGURE THIS OUT! HE WAS LOST THE WHOLE TIME!

Seriously? You Guys are Jerks

"Can you just skip to the point before you go into your big blah blah I'm evil speech?" Nidget had apparently seen this kind of thing before. The hooded man I swear to the gods legitimately looked sad at this request!

"NONESENSE THE GREAT TOMMY DEMANDS YOU ATTENTION!" Nidget and I just started laughing.

"Tommy? Seriously this is your big evil name?"

"What? oh like you two assholes are so superior." The pretense of things was dropped, the poor man just wanted to be big and spooky and here he was saddled without about the most unspooky name ever. Like I guess like Little Timmy would be unspookyer, maybe.

"Yes I'm sorry Tommy please continue." Nidget and I couldn't even keep it together to tell him to keep being all evil.

"No, not until you guys show me more respect, I'm a big evil conjurer! I demand your respect!"

"You had some fleshless monkeys and like an evil bitch helping you, that's not exactly like super hard."

"Those were straight from your nightmares! I CONJURED YOUR NIGHTMARES!"

"Ehhh, I'm not afraid of monkeys, and Nidget's not afraid of fleshless things, its just two things that were kind of annoying put together." I could see him getting angrier, I kind of felt sorry for him, though he did try and kill us, just really poorly.

"Leave, just leave, I'll unlock the door just get out of here."

"Well not without the money." Tommy looked at us like we were the dicks in this situation.

"THERE ISN'T ANY THIS IS AN ILLUSION!" He dispelled the money with a wave of his hand, "NOW GO!" Nidget and I decided it was best to just leave, you know let Tommy be alone for a bit.

"Should we like go back and kill him?"

"Nah, I mean he's probably someone elses issue, and this is the past right? We might mess up something in the future if we kill Tommy back here."

"But we are killing Carver."

"Hell yeah we are." Because screwing up time only partially applied to getting vengeance.

Fire So Cold It Burns

"What is that anyway?" We had dispatched the flesh monkeys easily enough if only grossly. I had taken to using the cold flame as more of a sword than just throwing it. Nidget was of course intrigued by it.

"Cold fire, its the only magic I know."

"Trezlan never taught you his necromancy?"

"I didn't really know him for long, he just arrived, declared he's a god and then disappeared, on top of that, I don't want to learn his stuff, its terrifying."

"Made him a god."

"And he used that power to send us to the past and get us stuck in a trap."

"Point taken." The creatures had stopped for now. I could sense it wasn't exactly over, but I had no reason to believe that, just a feeling. Clearly whatever had killed the people before was a lot more powerful than some fleshless monkeys. With no other options we kept going forward, figuring there had to be a way out or a way to stop whatever was inside, or failing both of those things perhaps treasure to bait the trap? The last one was Nidget's belief, but I couldn't find fault in his logic.

From the initial assault area we moved further down into the ruins. The walls of bone cave way to the more traditional stone work. Wall paintings probably in blood depicted something, but I didn't understand the language and Nidget apparently didn't speak it either so we both could just look at and try and interpret the writings as to what it meant. It looked to be some kind of ritual, but for what? Couldn't tell you. We ignored the writing and kept going down because that seemed like a really good idea!

Past the blood writing we came to an altar and I'd be lying if I wasn't surprised there was gold and jewels all around it. Like wow Nidget was actually correct. Of course immediately upong entering the chamber the doors slammed and a man in a hooded cloak showed up. So we had fallen for the trap, but honestly we were kind of there anyway? So yeah, fun times were indeed ahead!

In Sacrifice of the Dark

"So spiders?"

"No monkeys."

"Bullshit no one gets sacrificed to monkeys."

"I was more hoping, I'd love to fight some god monkeys." Nothing had attacked us yet, but it let us come up with what could attack us. I did want to fight some monkeys, if only because I'd only ever really seen them in books and never in reality yet, and I so wanted to fight some.

"Well I just don't want it to be flesh monsters, far too bloody, you hear me creatures in the dark? Have some gods damn skin."

"I agree skin would make things easier to deal with." I did find it mildly alarming Nidget had a preference and a reason for that preference. But you know somethings are best left unsaid.

"So we're killing Carver when we get out right?"

"Totally, like not even letting her explain, straight to the murdering."

"Agreed." Just then we were attacked by fleshless monkeys. So what I wanted, and what Nidget didn't want. The universe as always was a cruel mistress.

Suspicions Naturally Growing

The inside initially was straight horror, bodies, and parts of bodies splattered everywhere. It looked like they had all stacked up at the door hoping to escape before it was sealed, which conflicted with what Dr. Carver had told us. I found myself distinctly aware I didn't have my swords, or any sword, and really wished Nidget would lend me one, but he apparently kept his weapons his own.

"You said you locked yourself away?"

"I meant I locked the site away, just misspoke." Nidget didn't seem convinced and I shrugged, maybe she panicked? We had gotten inside, just past where the door light was fading when I noticed Carver wasn't next to us, she had moved to the door.

"Good luck you two!" I tried to throw some frost fire at her but it was too late the door slammed shut and I heard the chains and such being reattached. The metal had all sorts of runes on our side so I knew even my magic would probably not work against it.

"Why do you think she shut us in?"

"Because we're a sacrifice Nidget."

"You don't know that, maybe she's just afraid of what's in here and like figured we could handle it and..." With the door shut we could see more in the room, the ambient light highlighed the walls were made of bone and written in blood on the ceiling was "Welcome to your death."

"You were saying."

"Yeah we're fucked."

Dr. Carver, Survivor

"So I know Nidget he is well was a well known thief."

"Hey... well at least you knew me."

"But who are you other than Trezlan's grand daughter? Some kind of doctor from your clothing and lack of weaponry?" I hadn't realized the prisoner outfit of the future would look like a doctor outfit of the past.

"I'm a soldier, or I was I should say, the outfit is more that I was a prisoner."

"Oh? What did you do?"

"Killed some people for not being just." Carver's eyes looked down.

"Oh." I couldn't read her, whatever association I had with justice had been severed since Nidget took me to the portal.

"I'm not a murderer really, ok I am sort of, but its a recent thing I used to fight machines." I could tell from her look Dr. Carver wasn't really on board with what I was saying.

"Well I believe you! Besides its not like I haven't done some ethically questionable things myself, I mean when the rest of my team was dying I locked myself in a chamber and didn't let anyone else in." This was meant to reassure me and Nidget, it didn't really. We stood there awkwardly not saying anything for a bit after her revelation.

"So treasure?" Nidget of course spoke up.

"I'm not sure really, we were just starting into the chamber when whatever it is attacked."

"You didn't see what killed your fellows?" I suspected Carver was holding out on us, but I had no way of proving that.

"Nope, aren't you excited to see what's beyond this door?" I hadn't even noticed the door, it looked pretty evil with runes and other marks on it. I did notice chains as well, just a lot of bad stuff.

"Can we?" But she already broke the seal on the door and with it kick started our super fun adventure. SUPER FUN GUYS CAN YOU TELL I'M NOT BEING SARCASTIC!

Trezlan The Great and Foolish

"Where are we?"

"When would probably be a better question." I looked at Trezlan with a scowl he put up his hands like he meant not offense. We were standing beside a cave, there was a woman there her outfit looked odd, like she was some kind of archivist or something but the clothing was all leather and silk, a look I'd never seen.

"I recognize I believe Nidget, but I have no idea who the woman is, or how a dead man like Pavarossi is here."

"Not dead anymore probably, I have no idea Trezlan what am I?" Trezlan shook his head.

"Annoying, Dr. Carver you asked for help and I give you, help! This is the formerly dead Nidget Pavarossi and my grand daughter Anzi."

"My god you've bred on your way to being a god?" I didn't know who Dr. Carver was, but I liked her right away.

"Anways Dr. Carver, I believe this ends our transaction, good luck."

"Wait I thought you were the god of luck how did you do time travel?" I was confused, I had been already, but this was more confusing.

"Dr. Carver here was excavating this whatever it is, and her entire group was wiped out by local and other nasties I'm sure you'll become acquainted with, and so she cried out for assistance, and I heard her and came to help."

"Still confused how the luck thing factors in."

"It was lucky for her I was listening." He smiled at that and then was gone. Leaving me with Dr. Carver in some ancient when.

"Well this is awkward." She seemed high spirits for her situation.

"Right, well Dr. what can we do for you?"

"I have no idea."

"That makes three of us." It was an odd start for an adventure, but I've had worse, so much much worse.

Intervention To Intervene

"You know I sent you because I was busy." Trezlan had saved us, he just showed up and burned everything and then stuck around to be a dick. I noticed that seemed to be his MO, do something and then complain you had to do something.

"This isn't my fault."

"You didn't open a pathway to a dimension you had no idea about and then run out of space for that lack of knowledge." Nidget looked away.

"Ok so maybe this was some of my fault, but she's crazy Trezlan, she got us arrested again! Usually this is the kind of shit you'd get me stuck in on a longer time frame, but she's already well in deep with Oshujon. She's doing his work!" Trezlan looked at me with sadness, or pity, it was hard to tell.

"Is that true?"

"He gave me pur..."

"I had to kill him once because of his purpose, or destroy him, either way I did something to him once, and now my own blood is following him, this pains me."

"Well maybe if you gave me some kind of direction! I'm lost Trezlan, I don't know what I'm to do." He looked at me, and then Nidget, and then back to me.

"You need some kind of quest then? Ok well I can do that." I should have known at that point I wouldn't like what happened next. Least of all because we went back in freaking time, how does someone this idiotic have this much power? It's like giving a toddler an anti air battery!

Planar Problems

"I almost wish we were back with the police." The creatures were some kind of spider wolf hybrid, why or how was beyond me. The whole plane deal made little sense to me, but everything nowadays did. I swear being the grand daughter of a god was a rawer deal then being the daughter of a losing general.

"What Wolfiders aren't your thing? This is great." Nidget did seem to be enjoying himself, though I guess being a ghost sucks enough any activity is better than what you were doing before.

"I don't have my swords, and my magic seems to be screwed up here Nidget."

"Oh right don't use magic, this plane has some kind of oddness with it."

"YOU ARE NO HELP!"

"I'm killing things lady!" We were moving through the not city to some place Nidget at least seemed to want to get to. I still had no idea where we were or why Nidget had decided we should go here. We had fought our way from the prison area to another section of town when we literally ran out of space. The city had given way to just a gigantic gap.

"You freaking idiot."

"Ok so mistake may have been made." MAY HAVE BEEN MADE?! This is what he told me. THIS IS WHAT HE TOLD ME AS WE FACED CERTAIN DEATH! I didn't know Nidget very much, but this highlighted why I figured we would not be great friends.

Bad Ideas, On Bad Ideas

I was in solitary because they knew if I wasn't I'd probably kill more people. It was pretty boring waiting around for something to happen. I didn't even know what that something would be. I suspected maybe something with Oshujon, his grand plan to free me. Turned out it was Nidget and his not so grand plan to just break out of prison.

"Come on lets get out of here." He had somehow gotten in the ceiling.

"I'm facing enough shit right now, I think breaking out would be a bad idea."

"Yeah ummm I saw a group of armed men coming this way, so unless you want to."

"Ok lets go." I didn't need more convincing, I figured at some point killing me was just the smart play, so better to go wherever Nidget had figured to go. He threw down a rope I didn't ask about and into the ceiling we went. He got lost almost immediately. I mean I can't fault him, I had no idea where to go either, but I swear he thought we'd go inside to leave the building and what? Who does that? Who can't figure out how to leave a building? Eventually we found our way outside and into the gods damned trash. I figured it was a statement on how Nidget felt about me as a person. I could hear the alarms going off, they were coming for us. I had no idea what we were going to do since I'd already tried to unsuccessfully to leave and not been very good at it.

"This is going to be weird." I didn't even get to ask what he meant by that. He drew a symbol on the ground and then all of a sudden we were someplace else. It was a new plane of some kind. It looked kind of like the place we'd just left except everything was blue and cracked.

"Where are we?"

"Uhhh well..." Creatures were coming, I could smell them before I saw them.

"Nidget."

"Look this isn't my fault, it's Trezlan's fault remember that." I tried to remember that, I really tried as the creatures came. It was super super hard.

I Don't See How Any of That Is My Problem

"Captain." That's all they said, they came in I was bandaged up from the car accident. I don't know where Nidget was, probably in a hospital hopefully getting what looked like a nasty head wound looked at. Four of them this time, no name tags.

"Let me guess I'm in a lot of trouble." They all laughed at that, it was that kind of gallows laugh you have before something really bad happens.

"Multiple killings, and we are still trying to determine what the shorty you have with you is, he's not showing as technically alive."

"Well there you go, you solved it he's not technically alive." They frowned, people frown when you don't take them seriously.

"Where is Oshujon? What are you guys planning?" Planning? That was new to me, I didn't even have much of a plan from him other than bring justice to the unjust. If he had a greater plan that was bigger than I had he didn't tell me. I couldn't tell these guys that of course.

"I'm sure he's around, he's got plans for justice you know, justice plans." That seemed to scare them, I could tell from their eyes, at this point I knew it was best to keep silent since I didn't know anything.

"So you don't know anything either. Lock her up." I don't know why they had to specify to lock me up, I WAS ALREADY LOCKED UP! But I was taken away to a holding cell to be sent back to real prison, because that was my new life. I tell you for defending justice I was sure seeing the wrong side of the justice system.

I'm Still Lost

There were more dead men and even less information from my new short helper. Nidget was a lot of things I'd seen, an over explainer was not one of them. I was mostly concerned with his don't work with Oshujon thing, but I was also intrigued by the weird crossbow he carried with him and his dagger/swords. I'd never seen someone do the kind of things he did and really wanted him to show me, except we were already on the run. The men we killed had reported us to other men and it just spiraled from there. I found myself driving down a high way with Nidget hanging out the window shooting his crossbow at our pursuers.

"You have to drive a little bit more steady."

"It's literally my first time."

"You are doing well then! Steady though!" I didn't even know how to keep it steady. I was literally learning as we were speeding down the road gun fire taking large chunks from the vehicle as we went. So it totally was not my fault when I smashed into a police barricade and almost killed Nidget, well I don't know if he could be killed, but he almost had a really really bad day. I guess I should have figured having a running gun battle in the streets upsets people, but you know that's a detail you just don't think about until you're in one.

I did wind up back in prison though, that seemed unfair since I didn't intentionally escape, and really isn't reality a prison to begin with? No they didn't see my reasoning either.