"So you've locked me in my own mind?" It was like being stuck with Valyra all over again, except now the blind creepy white eyed guy was here with me.
"No, you've locked you in your own mind Trezlan, you are the one who is trapped here while the other you is out there."
"That doesn't even make sense."
"Because you can't see him, you will in a moment, but I need to prepare you, you can not simply defeat yourself or destroy this other part, you need to reconcile or you'll forever be a shattered person." Don't worry it didn't make sense to me either.
"Who are you anyway? Why are you doing this?"
"Who I am is of no matter, I work for a group called the Shining Darkness (see because they are all blind, ha see, god I love sight puns) we represent an interested party in saving you, so here I am." Everytime I think no one likes me, they hire some creepy sightless person to save me from me. Ok so this happened one time, but still it was a lasting impression!
"I'm still at a loss here, why do I need saving?"
"Look I don't have much time, you need to confront your other and fix him so that you can be whole again Trezlan, I can not hold him back any longer." And with that the blind man was gone, in his place was me, except this me had had things rougher than I currently looked (I looked as I normally do, bearded, bald, dressed nicely) he had no beard, and was draped in various scars cuts and other damage, one arm was completely corrupt and from the look of his eyes the rest of him wasn't far behind. The sad part was he still basically looked like me because he was really.
"If I kill you I get to be this way FOREVER!" The voice was mine, but not exactly, it was a lot crazier than I think I've ever sounded. He rushed up to me and I could feel his hand on my throat, which was weird because it was really both of our throats in our mind... look its best if I try not to over think this. You ever heard someone say that they were choked by crazy? No? Well its a phrase for us ok, and I was literraly being choked by my own insanity (as opposed to someone else being nutty, because that happens to me all the time).
I didn't know if I could die in this place, but I figured if it was like my experience with Valrya I didn't want to find out. I punched the not me in the face, a couple times and the grip loosened, able to breathe again I quickly used that to my advantage and grabbed his left arm and snapped it (secretly I was hoping I wasn't actually injuring myself because yeesh that would hurt like all get out to heal). This caused crazy me to take a step back and whimper and cry. Like he immediately collapsed and start bawling like a child.
"You hurt me! Why did you hurt me?" It came out between sobs, I thought it was reasonable why I hurt him, but seeing the pathetic state he was in, it also seemed like outward cruelty.
"You were trying to kill me, I had to stop that, I don't want to die." I felt sorry for myself, even if I tried to kill myself, which is weird to admit.
"It hurts so much Trezlan, I just don't want to hurt anymore."
"You don't have to, I'm stronger now, I can take the pain, you can be free of it." I didn't know why I said that, it just made sense, I figured somewhere the blind man was helping me.
"What will become of me?"
"You'll become me again, we'll be one again, I can't do this without you." I extended my hand and the twisted broken me took it up and I could feel it all again, all the pain, misery, and wanton destruction was back. I hadn't realized at the time I'd shut it off, basically made another version of myself to take it all and thought one day I'd be ok, but I wasn't, and it wasn't fair to have a part of myself shoulder the burden all on his own.
With the pain and misery back where it belonged I opened my eyes once again in the room I was in before, the straps were off and my blind assistant was gone. On the desk he was at was a pouch of coins and a note describing a way out of the city that would skip by the guards. No other instructions were included, no name or contact information. My sword was leaning against the desk and I made sure to put it back in its rightful place. I still hurt from my ordeals, but I could deal with it, and the madness was gone (well the direct madness honestly what I do is crazy enough I'm not entirely sane).
So I made my way out of the city as the blind mans instruction lead me to and I said good bye to the lands of the Red Hand again, and again vowed never to return. I did have myself a new goal though, to Kill Morley so badly he winds up alive for me to kill again. Like I said the crazy never really leaves me...
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