Not a Very Surprising Revelation

I awoke in a field I vaguely remembered. I say "awoke" but I knew I was asleep because it was definitely a dream because it had to be one! I was in the middle of a crater, it all seemed similar I had trouble placing it until the white form of the vengeance god I'd slain arrived. And then all of a sudden I knew exactly what was going wrong with me.

"Trezlan I figured it was time for a talk." It was weird hearing the creature speak like this, when I'd fought it before we weren't exactly on talking terms.

"You! You're the reason I'm having troubles." I thought being damn near catatonic and screwed up for a while was the resolution to killing this particular god. I was very very wrong.

"Yes and no, you are having problems because you haven't been exactly doing what you are supposed to be doing, and its only manifesting now because more and more people have been believing in you." I was taken a bit back by anyone believing in me, I mean sure there was a cult of me in that foreign land, but its not like it was a full blown religion (it actually had become one, though again it was me in the abstract not me in the reality, because gods are best thought of in that regard).

"So you're telling me that cult has made me a god? It has made me in theory you?" The creature smiled.

"They all start as cults Trezlan, and yes in effect you are me, and you are not me, at this point you are more like the avatar of vengeance closer to that earth godling bartender you associate with."

"And you aren't even that dead god, you are a part of me trying to tell myself what is going on because I'm too stupid to figure it out on my own." As soon as I said this the not god of vengeance transformed into me.

"Well I wouldn't say you were too stupid to figure it out, you did figure it out, you just had to tell yourself you did." I hate talking with myself, especially in dreams. But my revelation realized I woke up.

"I'm the god of vengeance!" I exclaimed to Val who was startled about my sudden waking up.

"Oh gods no."

"And my neck really hurts, like seriously." And thus began my new god hood. Sort of, again I'm not exactly a god, and in this world well god is a relative term... Look I get into this more in the next entry... MORTAL LOOK UPON MY JOURNAL AND... yeah no, just read the next entry!